Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Grace, love, healing, and freedom

One day last week it was pretty late and I was lying in my bed still on my way to sleep, but ruminating on things in my mind, which is fairly normal for me throughout my day but only need to relax :), but I was struggling, so I asked God to speak to me through His Word, and truly kind of desperately too with a lot of forced faith from feelings, and He always graces me when I am that real and need comfort. So I came to Isaiah 30:18, and God speaks to me a lot in pictures so right away when I laid eyes on the passage there was a picture of my spiritual father kissing my cheek like He has done sometimes, and I always get a Father's love and pride when He does that, so God was communicating like that was what He was doing to me, and while it happened I felt an intense love and giddiness from God too, so it made me cry like His love and goodness usually does :). The whole passage was about God being gracious, and telling His people, in Zion I think, 'You shall weep no more', and 'He will be very gracious to you at the sound of your cry, when He hears it, He will answer you,and though the Lord gives you the bread of adversity..' and also heard the words, 'He will be gracious', 'favor', and 'He will heal you', and at the end of the passage it says 'He binds up the bruise of His people, and heals the stroke of their wound.' So it was very wonderful because I'd been crying and pondering about how he thinks of me when I do and of my pain, and He really showed me He loves me so much through it, hears all my cries and answers me with His love and wants me to be in His way. And I had a dream a few months ago about Him saying He wants to heal me, without the things the mental health meds were doing to me, and to gain more of Him rather than be on drugs that don't solve the real issues, but it was more simple and cool in the dream cuz He was like a person standing in front of me but glorious and I didn't see His face, and it was just a question and a reply, so yep, God wants to dry our tears with His love and freedom. I hope this doesn't freak anyone out in any way who may not know God a lot yet, cuz I've felt that sometimes God speaking to me, like clear or creative or a lot, but I think God has to be a freak sometimes, because He wants or needs to pursue us a lot, because we aren't totally believing what we know and/or want to believe, and He's so mad in love :) God bless!

-CP

Monday, May 25, 2009

Your faithful love

April 27th, 2009

This is something I wrote the other day after just soaking in God's Presence for a few minutes...may each of you be encouraged in your own journey.


The testimony of Your faithful love and goodness is etched in the secret pathways of my heart…
Stories yet unwritten, my life lies before me in beautiful simplicity
A plethora of unknowns, and a flood of peace
Only one thing certain is Your goodness
The only thing needed – the assurance of Your presence.

We will journey on together
Sojourners of truth and goodness
Creating together
Your joy overwhelms with me breathless anticipation
Beauty hidden to be unveiled
I am Yours and You are mine

I have my Daddy’s eyes

Your perspective,
And Your gaze is steady upon me…sealing in me Your marvelous work.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

a little reflection on what JMC has put within me

Here is a little reflection on what JMC has put within me.

"It is about receiving a genuine, true fire. The right passionate FIRE! We've all been hurt by man's systems, faults and pride. In my life, it was time to leave what religion tried to burn me with and let go, give into God's presence to burn from the inside out. We are fashioned in the VERY likeness of the REAL, INTIMATE and LOVING GOD who never relents when it comes to relationship with us! We are His and His alone. As His pure sons and daughters, He gave us all we need to live the victorious life...BEING A LOVER OF HIM! All things stem from this truth: Purpose, Identity, Family, True Covenant Relationships, Healthy Living, etc. Whatever I need, He has and will always be the cure, answer, solution! He is the Healer, Deliver, Perfecter of mankind! In Ephesians 3, it speaks of the exceedingly abundant riches our Father has bestowed upon us through the blood of His Son, Jesus. We SHARE in the glorious splendor of the His Kingdom come. IT is about abiding in who He is to BE who you are created to be!

I wanted to share a little excerpt from one of my journals.

March 29,2009

God spoke to me through Proverbs 3 this morning. Here are my thoughts and emotions towards His presence...

"I will not lean into what has been a false preeminence in this life. I will pursue your beauty's purity."

I spent part of the morning listening to Coldplay and I was so compelled to cry out for the Fine Arts and Media Kingdom. I enjoy the deep resolve of the authentic artistry within their music. I was so overwhelmed with aesthetic emotion and the Presence of my Father God was strong, pure on my being. Jesus, you are the perfect creation of the depth of motion the universe exists within and for. Papa God... You complete all of me.
I realized to a greater degree that I am called to influence through this media. How this lights up my inner being and brings a strong, fire-warmth to my soul. Much of me wants to own this, to form it. But only the Spirit knows the deep Spiritual things. I am an Artist...who just grasped a glimpse of the magnitude my Creator knows me as. Father God, give me Vision...Your Kingdom Vision!

-AJ

Monday, December 29, 2008

So this thing here is what you call a Blog huh?

Well now we must be savvy with our very own internet web blog. It's our hope to get this thing feeding you some revelation neat-O things that God's telling us. Plus it could be a great place to throw down some thoughts of your own and get some good ol' fashion communicatin going on.

Thanks for checkin it out.
-peace